a period of complacency, neglect, one-sided love, total sadness, ignorance, silence, unhappiness, pettiness, disappointments and misses killed off this wonderful love that made me what i am, built e confidence that i have and made me know what love is.

i guess it all started with my terrible pettiness... that let her felt devoid of my love for her, the care and concerns... i have unknowingly let her fall into e world of neglect.. this is all so wrong.

the painful words of breaking up.. with e added determination in her.. makes it all so hard to accept. i just wanna go up to her to hug her and never let go..... but what is stopping me.... there is this voice in me that tells me not to because this might just make her hate me instead... but i dont want to lose her... i really dont.

i love her. i really do. with all my heart. no questions about it. but my actions and words are the tools that hurt her, when it is supposed to be actions of love and words of care that should have been acted out, said to.

she has been my pillar of strength.. e source of my confidence.. e place of console when things go wrong.. but i have not been what she has been for me..

regrets..